Sunday, January 27, 2019

shit happens

There is this tv series created by Lena Dunham called Girls. It describes the life of several girls and it's about every day life. It's about routine struggles that everyone is going through. It explains with simple ways how someone can be psychotic, amazed, high, mad and still go through life and survive pain or anger.
A very specific scene from season two is my favourite, where Hannah is in the bathtub and she is singing 'I said maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me..' that song -wonderwall- from oasis. And at some point Jessa comes in the bathroom and Hannah screams startled, Jessa removes her clothes and gets in the bathtub. Just like that. Two friends. Laughing about their lives in the bathtub.
Realizations and growing up.
Life.
shit happens

Friday, January 25, 2019

There are no answers to all questions

You have the right to be treated right. To be valued and loved. You have the right to be heard and seen. You ought to be respected and hugged honestly. You should be able to be free and make your own choices. You have to be understood and noticed. You're not some ordinary person. To be here, to be like this, to feel that way, all of this is a state of uniqueness. Stop mistreating your own beauty and start demanding honesty, respect and be free to run run run away from idiots, pigs and speechless cowards. Ignore those late night messages that provoke your feelings and tear them apart in 2 seconds. Life is too short to stop at one place and hibernate there forever. 
Move on, learn to face the hard times of your life. Love your body, love your way of moving into space, love the way you talk and look at objects. Love the way you obsess about that tv show you watched that previous summer. Dare to love the imperfections of your true self, that unevenly cut belly button, or the hairs under your armpits. Dare to improve your language and communication skills and dare to speak out loud even when seen, at brought daylight. Be your worst enemy and the loveliest angel all at one unity. Don't be afraid. Fear is weakness running through your vanes. 
And delete all those messages of unfair love and limited affection. Deactivate your brain into thinking only what makes you happy for the moment. Live to create light and not destruction. Jump over all those objects in your way that slow your way and make your life miserable. And only you can name those. Quit making the same mistakes that lead you into the darkest, loneliest city corners.
Face that ex boyfriend of yours, say goodbye to your ex lovers that did you wrong and go find whats right. Accept the affectionate love of the world and give your everything to that old lady on the bus that absolutely needs to sit. Give a piece of you, to that homeless man on that corner of the street by giving him a blanket of yours. Tear apart your brain in order to succeed and pass that difficult test that leads you into freedom. Dear to give without expecting to receive. Speak to your God and He will answer through strange actions. Read those messages that He sends you and accept his life challenges.  Be fearless. Be yourself. Don't rush your way into life. Let some things just be. There are no answers to all questions.